(I’m sorry about the old post being sent out yesterday! I’m not sure what happened there, but I’m sure it was because of my non-techyness :))
I’m in a place of neediness. Have you ever been there?
You’re doing something new, or you’ve moved into a place that’s unfamiliar. You’re being stretched beyond what’s comfortable or being asked to operate where you don’t have much confidence. Suddenly, instead of moving forward boldly, you’ve got a lot of questions, and you’re overwhelmed by the need for direction and support.
That’s how I’m feeling right now primarily because of the process with my book. Every day is a new process. There are miles ahead of unfamiliar terrain, and I need a guide.
This year as I sought God about what to study in 2015, He brought to my memory something my friend Carol taught to our women’s Life Group the month before. In I Thess. 4:9, the phrase “taught by God” is the Greek word “theodidaktos”. Carol went on to share that she learned in a Beth Moore study that Paul had combined the words for taught and God to coin a new word, first used here in scripture.
The idea of being God-taught directly this year seemed like God’s direction for me, so that’s what I’m doing. I’m not following a reading plan or doing a study by someone else. I’ve done both in the past and am sure I will again, but this year I’m simply seeking God for where He wants me to go in my Bible each day.
I started with I Peter, and I’ve been inching through it since the beginning of the year. I’m more in love with Jesus than ever before as He guides me each day through the next little passage.
One day I was having a major freak out, because another author had done a web event with the same name as my book. Fear overtook me as I wondered if she was using the event to launch a book with the same title as mine. That morning God spoke peace directly into panic stricken heart with I Peter 2:22-25:
“When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly. ‘He himself bore our sins’ in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; ‘by his wounds you have been healed.’ For ‘you were like sheep going astray,’ but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls.”
Since “trust” is my word for the year, I realized God was reminding me to trust Him with my whole self–every circumstance, hurdle and seeming setback. I sighed and settled in as I pictured Him as my Shepherd–the One who cares about my every move, my safety, and my provision. I relaxed as I was reminded that He oversees it all, including the emotions of my soul.
Day after day has been like that example. God is using His Word to speak directly into my circumstances.
How is God leading you this year? I’d love to hear what study you’re doing or how God is directing you through the Bible!
Note: Leigh Ellen (2/26/2105 at 6:49 am) is the winner of Mothering From Scratch. Congratulations Leigh Ellen!