“Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.” ~Judy Garland
After a moments return to my old, default thinking, I began to rejoice for my sister authentically, wholeheartedly and happily. It was a huge step for me.
A second of “I’ll never be that good” turned into “I love seeing her stand in the fulness of her calling even as I’m starting to stand in the fulness of my own different calling.”
It’s so good to be back with you after a break for She Speaks! As I listened to Lysa TerKeurst’s message in our opening, I was convicted, challenged and inspired. I really can only describe the message as dazzling. Lysa has pursued God’s highest for her calling, and the fruits are abundant in her ministry.
For so long (way toooo long!) I stood outside of my calling to speak, cowed by comparison and intimidated by my own fears. In fact, I wrote about how that attitude invaded my whole life in this devotion. Last night I asked Barry, “How do you think I’m doing with the whole confidence thing?”
His reply made me smile. He said, “I see you as a jet roaring down the runway. Two years ago, you weren’t even in the airport.”
I don’t tell you all this to toot my own horn. I just feel inspired to write about calling on Mondays for the next little while. I’ve learned some lessons the really hard way through too much failure and too much fear. I have to confess that I understand that if I had followed God more closely that I wouldn’t have taken such a self-destructive route. I’d love for you to be able to learn from my school of hard knocks.
You have a calling. Have you stepped into it, or are you still standing outside of it looking in with longing?
I want to share some of my story that brought me to this place where I could applaud Lysa with unreserved joy–no jealousy of her calling or feeling less than in my own.
I want to encourage you in your unique calling and cheer you on as you celebrate walking in or stepping into it.
Where do you feel like you are right now? Are you walking in your calling or working to step into it?
So here’s the plan for the blog for a while (no promises–you must know by now that I’m have attention deficit when it comes to writing): Mondays–quotes and callings, Wednesdays–comments on current events, Fridays–Jesus (what I’m learning about Him, seeing fresh about him, etc)